.whatever.wherever.whenever.

i can't wait

2011-08-17T12:06:00.000-07:00

8 days to go.

And i can't wait to go back home.

I can't wait to see my family.

I can't wait to eat with them.

I can't wait to hear my mom chattering away about anything.

I can't wait to sleep on my comfy little bed.

I can't wait to talk to my sister aka roommate before going to sleep.

I can't wait to hear my nephews and niece fight.

I can't wait to go out with my crazy BFFs and do crazy things.

I can't wait to ask for forgiveness on raya and cry my eyes out until my eye make up melts away.

I can't wait to drive my little brother around whenever he needed me to.

......

.....

....

...

so many things that I can't wait to do, but yet so little time.

yet again,

ilasya

mistakes.learn from it.

2011-05-17T19:06:00.000-07:00

hey!its been so long since i blog.i guess from there u can tell, im a lazy person.haha!ohh well.i guess that, i just dont feel like writing these past semesters.and i dont know what made me want to write plak this time, but WHAT THE HECK??!here i go. :D

but i think i know why i dont write anymore.i think it because after reading and observing other people's blog, i come to conclusion that, blogging, commenting can be very dangerous sometimes.if u have too much to say about a person or a situation, better not blog about it if u cant control ur feelings.the thing is, u dont know how people will interpret and react when they read ur entries.im not saying all blogs are like that.but there are few blogs that really made me think, "if u're gonna say things like this to release ur tension and hurt someone publicly, then its better not to write anything at all." all of these will end up bad.friendships will be lost and worst of all, that person is humiliated in front of everyone who has internet access.

thats why, i think, i dont really blog.im afraid that it would come to things like this.but that doesnt mean im going to quit blogging for good.i'll learn from my or even other's mistakes.thats how u should live ur life.this is how i live my life.

"i make mistakes and i learn from my mistakes"

with love,

ilasya

you can count on me like 1 2 3, i'll be there.

2011-01-29T20:47:00.000-08:00

in love with this song. :)

love,

ilasya.

harsh or not??

2010-12-15T01:37:00.000-08:00

adam: myra!jgnlh!abg tgh main ni.
myra: myra nk main jgk! (while slamming the table with her hand)
adam: eeeeeeeeeee! (now its his turn to slam the table but somehow something hit myra in the face)
myra: ABG!!

*no need to continue that anymore.u can guess what happen after right?yeahh..the BIG ANNUAL battle has just started! wooptidooo! -__-"

maybe few fights, wouldn't be that bad.u can still be patient about it.but imagine if u hear it thousands of time and especially when u were sleeping.sometimes u just wanna yelled "SHUT THE HELL UP!I'M TYRING TO SLEEP HERE!" but because they're just two little monsters that u love, makes u think twice.i don't want to throw a huge tantrum on a 8 year old boy and a 5 year old girl.actually, i did throw something but xkne pn..i just gave them a little bit of a scare..DANG IT!!im such a mean aunt!

seriously though.i am not really always this uptight, grumpy, angry or this mean to anyone.especially my nephews and niece.but i don't know what is wrong with me these past few days.i just feel angry, irritated most of the time.its not the 'time of the month'.its not like i'm stress or anything.but...ohh well.i guess i have to control it better. *sigh

u know how kids are right??they like to play games.all SORT of games!especially computer games.well..the only place where they can play online games, is in my room.so imagine how messy and noisy it is everyday!so sometime i get a bit annoyed.so everytime i need time alone, i just say,

"OK!mamaila nk mandi!so blh berhenti jap x?sbb mamaila s**** kalo nk mandi.".

you know what they said whenever i say that to them??

"alaaa.masa ni jgklh mamaila nk mandi."

all i said was

"sukati mamailalh!hahahah!:D"

kesian dieorg. but still love them. :D

moral of the story here is if u want time alone, just say u want to go MANDI.then they'll be out of ur room in a jiffy!:D

love,

ilasya. :)

have a little faith in me

2010-05-10T01:15:00.000-07:00

ok..the title has NOTHING to do with my entry alright??nothing!i repeat NOTHING!!!its just one random sentence from a song i was listening to..I'll Run by The Cab..credits to my lil bro..love him!muahxx!! (he hates it when i do that..hehe.. ;) )

its been a while since my last entry...again..TERRIBLE kn??hehe..
but this is just TOO long!!hahaha..
dh BERHABUK dh blogku ni..SAWANG bkn main BYK LG!!!
one semester has passed..and i only have ONE entry??!!
LIKE HALOOOO!!!
THATS TERRIBLE right??haha.. :))
a lot has happen this past semester..
to tell u the truth, its been a ROLLERCOASTER ride!!
i mean literally!!!KIDDING!!hehe..:D
no seriously...im serious..can u see my face??

<:S is that even a serious face?!??!IT LOOKS LIKE A TEARLESS SAD FACE WITH A WEIRD LOOKING TRIANGLE HAT!!.......i cant even say ITS a TRIANGLE!!
u know what??let me try it again....

>
(ok..dahi bkerut..tu mnunjukkn ke-SERIOUS-an kite..kn??)

>:

(we need eyes..for eye contact..so people can know how ure actually feeling..and even if ure telling the truth or not..THE EYES ARE IMPORTANT!IMPORTANT PEPS!ok..i need to continue to make a SERIOUS face..)

>:|

(ok.FINALLY!!MOUTH!u gotta have mouth right??if not, it wouldnt be a FACE!hahaha!! ;) i mean...a normal face..he he..)

alright...how about now?can u see my face??can u see how serious i am??

OK!FINE!!U KNOW WHAT??!lets just IGNORE that little....what do u call this thing?ummm....
AHHH!!lets just call is a "ONE OF ILA'S WEIRD MOMENTS"..

"ONE OF ILA'S WEIRD MOMENTS" aka "MOMENTS THAT, ILA TRYING TO MAKE A JOKE THAT ISNT REALLY FUNNY......AT ALL!!kinda of moment.." its embarassing.. *sigh -__-"
lets just say that im not a funny person..i try to be..but it usually DOESNT WORK..hahahha! ;)
im more of a listener than a JOKER.. ;)

(ooooooooo..I LIKE UR STATUS!!bak kate aida syg..hehe..:D missing her gedikness.. ^_^)

ok..back to the original story..hehe :D

i dont want to get into details..lets just end it there if u dont mind.. :)

(ok sengal..dhlh back to the original story..pastu nk end it there..kuakakakaka!jgn marah ye...hehehe.. ;) )

FINALLY its semester break!!and i can go back home for 2 months!!
make that 1 month, 2 weeks for me..i have to go back earlier than other people..i got dance practice..hehe..(IDA!!!KOCOK2!!!rindu gile ida!! :( )
and yes.... i counted the days til i have to get back to UDM...
its sad isnt it??
counting down the days to the end of ur holiday....*sigh :-< style="font-size:100%;">BIG or something that makes u feel that u cant wait for something.. but i dont know why i counted the days for something that will definitely make me feel sad.. :( because i have to LEAVE MY FAMILY..again..for the 3rd time.. but at the same time..i cant wait to see my friends!!!:D i guess U LOSE SOME U WIN SOME ehh?hehehe..:D not exactly lose and win..hmmm...well U KNOW WHAT I MEAN right??!!hhehe..:D

its been 12 days since i flew back home..
FYI..i flew back on an airplane ok.. (AIRPLANE!!!MIRA mane??!!*sigh...miss her LOTS! <3) style="font-style: italic;">(jgn risau mira..ur day will come..:D insya-ALLAH)
if anyone ask me what i'm doing now at home..i'll just say.."sleep, eat, drink, online, drive around, jog, baby sitting,.."
thats basically what i did..so far i've been home..

but now im staying at my sister's place..to be the eyes (:) and ears (< > maybe that could be my ear..hahah!but my ears arent that capang ok.. ;)) for my sister and her husband while theyre at work..we have some trust issues with their new maid...and i kinda volunteered myself to be here since i dont actually have anything else to do at home..hehe. ;)
ni br 1st night..so its been fun!!i'll update on what happen here often.insya-ALLAH..hehe..

alright..thats all for tonight..
im sleepy..
and i think my PURPLE lappy is too..hehe..(PURPLE! :(( PIQA~!!)

p/s: i dont know whether u notice i had some sudden breakdown throughout my entry..i just really miss my friends!! :((
its been kinda lonely without them..i dont only miss those people i mentioned..I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS!!!i just mention theirs just because coincidentally ade kne mengena ngn ape yg nk diperkatakn..hehe..
GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE!!and sweet dreamssss....

xoxo,
ila

the best gift of life :D

2009-11-23T10:13:00.000-08:00

salam..
i know its been a long time since my last entry..
i just dont feel inspired to write anything recently..
actually maybe its because of lack of time this month..huhu..
EXAM MONTH..what do u expect from me??hehehe..:D
plus u cant pakse2 these things, kn2?
if it comes....it comeslh....huhuhuh..:D

its 2.26 in the morning and im sleepy but i dont feel like sleeping..
what am i suppose to do??
so i decided to check out my friend's blog..
and the lucky one was MIRA's!WOOOOHHHOOO!!!:DD
her blog was one of my fav to read actually..so does NOR's..
i cant count the times i laughed reading their blogs..hahahah!
i dont think i have enough hands and feet if i were to count!!
even if campur tgn n kaki "katak" nor!!hahah!;P syggggggg NOR!!muahXX!hehheeheehe..

now... in my room.. with my sister soundly asleep on her bed next to me.. i suddenly feel lonely...
TO BE HONEST...i miss my friends so much!
i got used to all the CRAZINESS AND LAUGHTER for 6 months, and now everyone is back home for semester break, and... I MISS THEM TERRIBLY!
to tell u the truth...when i first found out i got into UDM, i was scared actually...
it was a really SCARY thought of going into UNIVERSITY LIFE..
and also the thought that i was going to live on my own with "bunch of strangers" for 3 whole years...
i had to learn how to be independent..
here in PJ, ade maid tlg basuh bj...tlg kemaskn bilik...tlg msk...buat tu..buat ni..
basically i've live my life like a SPOILT PRINCESS, who gets whatever she wants..(so not true...not ALL ofcourse...hehe..but im still hoping though...hahahah!)

the 1st, 2 weeks was the hardest.. call it whatever you want.. I call it TRUTH.
but i got use to washing my own clothes, eating outside food and (kalo xmls) msk sendiri, etc.. and whenever i feel homesick...i dont cry anymore like i usually did last time.. all thanks to my FRIENDS...

.MIRA.
.AIDA.
.NOR.
.FATIN.
.PIKA.

and many more..

without them, i dont think i'd enjoy my University life like i am now.. :D

ALL BEGINNING MUST COME TO AN END.. but for me.. its an end to a new beginning in my life..
1 semester has past..and i have another 5 semesters to go..
and i hope we'll always be together and remain good friends even after University life.. because i love u guys so so so so much!!!
i would write about u guys like what MIRA and NOR did.. but i just couldnt find the RIGHT WORDS to describe all of u guys..

so to speak, IM SPEECHLESS when talking about u guys.. :D

all i can say is i love u guys to death!!<3
we had our ups and downs..but that made us even closer...despite the problems we faced. :)

THE BEST GIFT OF LIFE is FAMILY and TRUE FRIENDS..

nothing can be better than that.. and nothing can replace what i have now.. because of that... we should cherish and appreciate them while u still can in this world..

DEMI LOVATO - GIFT OF A FRIEND

Sometimes you think you'll be fine by yourself
'Cause a dream is a wish that you make all alone
It's easy to feel like you don't need help
But it's harder to walk on your own

You'll change inside when you realize

The world comes to life and everything's bright
From beginning to end
When you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find the beauty you are
When you open your heart and believe in
The gift of a friend
The gift of a friend

Someone who knows when you're lost and you're scared
And there through the highs and the lows
Someone you can count on, someone who cares
Beside you wherever you'll go

You'll change inside when you realize

The world comes to life and everything's bright
From beginning to end
When you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find the beauty you are
When you open your heart and believe in
The gift of a friend

And when your hope crashes down, shattering to the ground
You, you feel all alone
When you don't know which way to go
And there's no signs leading you home
You're not alone

The world comes to life and everything's bright
From beginning to end
When you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find the beauty you are
When you open your heart and believe in
When you believe in
You can believe in
The gift of a friend

ur friend,
ila. <3>

N9 vs KELANTAN

2009-11-10T11:08:00.000-08:00

ok arini...kne ckp BAHASA IBUNDA...hehe..
bhs ibunda ku dfhmi smua...kn3 mira??nor??aida??hehehe..
xyh nk gado2, psl xphm ape org tu ckplh, BHS SIAMlh, pape jelh..hahah!! ;D

sbb ila nk ckp psl rase malu ngn org2 mlayu yg tlibat ngn kgnsan yg blaku kt Bukit Jalil aritu mase plawann antara N9 dan Kelantan.

tau plawann ni dh lame lps..tp tbace miranye entri psl plawann ni yg hamba ALLAH letak kt status die tu, buat ila rase nk comment gak psl ni..

sblum pape, TAHNIAH kpd N9 atas kemenangan korg..
(ruginye aku xtrima bet tu, kalo amek, mesti dpt top up free...hehhe)

"wtp menang lau gado2..buktikn mlayu mang da jd loser...blaja xnk...anugerah naib canselor, dekan sume dkt plaja cine n india..mlayu jd ap?? jd kaki pukul sbb bola?? sbb klntan klh skg denga cte nga gado kt lua 2...bgos a...tros2 a gado...jd la loser kt negara sndri...bia kte jd singapore...mlayu idop mrempat...nk ker?? dorg nie xseda2 la...at least, lau xmampu pon nk bgunkn mlayu, xperlu bruk kn imej mlayu...bg kaum cine n india mkin brani pertikaikn hak...wat a pathetic loser..."

ila sokong2 sgt status ni..
malu siot...
malu sgt2!
adepende ni??kalo ye pn mrh sbb klh, jgnlh smpai bakar2 kerusi, baling2 mercun..
lg mbhykn org lain adelh..manelh tau, main2...tuk tuk tuk...tkene kwn sendiri..baru nk menyesal..xpyhlh weh...xgune dh kalo dh camtu...
kalo mrh skali pn, MENGUCAPLH BYK2, WAHAI2 HAMBA ALLAH sekalian...

lg2 org yg tlibat tu org mlayu...lglh....
astaghfirullah al -azim!!
lglh aku malu!
org cina india pn xbuat camtu tau..
jgnlh nk malukn org mlayu..
dhlh kite ni tuan rumah, tp tuan rumah yg buat hal..
mmg malu sungguh!!
xtkate malu aku ni haaa...

harap2 kite smua amek pengajaran drpd ni..
kite xblh mlyn sgt prasaan mrh, kecewa tu sgt smpai membawe kerosakkan or kecederaan yg xdiingini..
tlglh...
jgnlh buat camni lg...
utk ksejahteraan bsame..

ilasya.

hope its not too late..

2009-11-06T21:21:00.000-08:00

i know my recent entry is a bit down..moody..WEIRD! but i suddenly feel like posting what i was feeling..hehe.. but thanks to NUR's and MIRA's blog, i feel so much better!!

here, i would like to take this opportunity (mcm nk bg speechlh plak kn??hehe..) to say sorry to my friends "down there"... (you know who u are.;D) i know this is kinda out of the BLUE...but i just read mira's ke"MISTERI"an...so i feel that i need to clear things out..

"sorry sgt2 ila xturun smlm..ila xtau knape ngn ila smlm..mengade kot bdn ni..huhu..but im fine now!!hehehe.."

LOVE U GUYS SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!

i really hope its not too late to apologize... ;D

signing out with lots of love and hugs,
ila. <33

anonymous

2009-11-06T01:56:00.000-08:00

i dont know why..
but my heartbeat is raising..
i have shortness in breath..
my hands are shivering..
i don't feel like getting out of my room or even my bed..
i don't feel like eating also..
but i shoved 2 packets of munchys and a packet of milo to stop my stomach from grumbling different kinds of music..
_________________________________________________________________

how can i make it stop??
anyone can diagnose this symptoms for me??
doctors??future doctors??
MAKE IT STOP PLEASE!! :((

patient's name: anonymous
patient's gender: -
patient's mood: -

love,
me, myslef and I.

45 minutes of pure excitement + neck ache!!

2009-08-14T06:50:00.000-07:00

i finally arrived at Subang Airport safely at 4.35pm today. i went home with a few friends because coincidently, we were in the same flight. (THANK GOD for that!) i don't know what will happen to me if i went home alone, since it was my first time flying SOLO. usually, my dad arranged every single thing. but now, since i'll be staying in Kuala Terengganu for 3 years, i have to start learning how to go back home on my own. it will be scary at times. there will be many questions wandering in my mind; "where should i wait?", "am i in the right bus/plane?", "where should i go from here?", "am i lost?",....and so on. but i'm sure that i'll be able to find my way home from KT. -insya Allah.
usually if i take the bus ride, its 6-7 hours of tiring journey from KT to KL. but by airplane, its only 45 minutes journey!even though my neck was aching after doozing off on the airpplane, it was worth it!!

with lots of love & hugsss,
ila.

Red as strawberries in the summertime.

2009-07-26T18:37:00.000-07:00

This song has been in our heads for DAYS!!!! We like the cover version better than the original by Fleet Foxes. we would sing this song out of the blue, while walking to class, waiting for the lecturer to come in, eating in the cafe,... I can’t list all of them. It’s too many.
Let’s see whether this song will be stuck in your head or not after hearing it twice or more.

Fleet Foxes - White Winter Hymnal

I was following the pack
all swallowed in their coats
with scarves of red tied ’round their throats
to keep their little heads
from fallin’ in the snow
And I turned ’round and there you go
And, Michael, you would fall
and turn the white snow red as strawberries
in the summertime.

with lots of love & hugs,
ila.

Thursday, Friday, Saturday,...

2009-07-26T16:54:00.000-07:00

Usually when you're about to do something for the first time, like going to university after you passed your SPM, living on your own and meeting your faculty seniors, it’s scary and nerve-wrecking. Especially, after you heard a lot of stories about MMS being the worst week of your university life (which is not true at all. Here, in UDM at least. :D but it was tiring.) Or "incidents" at your dorm (that’s why I don't sleep in my room when my roommate has gone home. :)) ).

Thursday, 23^rd July - Well, last Friday night, all Diploma Teknologi Maklumat (DTM) and Multimedia (DTMM) freshmen had a "Majlis Suai Kenal Pelajar Baru". It was suppose to start at 8.00pm, but of course we were late. Usually, Aida, Mira and I were the first ones to arrive to any classes (we want to sit in front. :)))) ). But because we were nervous and it looked like no one was ready to go yet, so we decided to wait for the others to get ready and go together. By the time everyone got ready, it was already 8.30pm. So we went together. We laughed all the way to Block G.

To my surprise, the function wasn’t that bad. Actually, it wasn’t bad at all. It was very fun and entertaining to my surprise! I thought it was a very formal thing. But it wasn’t! We had lots of fun. We played charades but we had to guess and drew it out. It was hilarious! Too bad we didn’t take picture of it. I could put it here. Sorry. :D After that each group was given a state and have to do something that represents the state given. Example, if you got Penang, you can do Boria. If you got Johor, you can do "Tarian Kuda Kepang". Like my group, Group 6 consists of 5 freshmen; Aina, Timan, Syafiq, Nazim and I, and 3 seniors; Kak Sarah, Kak Bella and Abg Acap, we were given Sabah or Sarawak. So we did both.

First the guys had to dance (I think it was called “tarian buluh” or something. I’m not sure. But it has something to do with buluhlh. Where you jump in and out of the buluh-buluh, bla bla bla bla... but it was hilarious!), then the girls wanted to join but the guys won’t allow it and threw rocks at us. So the girls got angry and “sumpit” them. hahaha! So the guys died and the girls got to dance and play. – The end.

While the other group did:

Penang – Boria.

Johor – Kuda Kepang.

Negeri Sembilan – (don’t know what it’s called but it’s about a jobless guy who wants to get married but his mother don’t approve because he doesn’t have a job. It’s based on a song.).

Melaka – Tarian Inang.

Kelantan – Dikir Barat.

Terengganu – State Song – “Impianku”

It was a fun night. We laughed all the way through the function. I met new friends and we got some of the senior’s number, so if we need something like tutoring, books or even “dirty little secrets” about the lecturers. Hehehe. ;P

We went back around 11 pm. When I came back to my room, there was a note on my desk. Kak Farah went back home. So I was all alone that night. But I decided to sleep alone that night. Because I didn’t want to bother Mira, I knew she was tired as well. To make sure I don’t have trouble sleeping that night, I did my all my assignments until 3 am. I definitely didn’t have trouble sleeping but I woke up at 10 am. I don’t know why. Bgn sendiri plak tu.hehe.

Friday, 24^th July - On Friday, Aida, Mira and I planned to go to beach that evening. We rented a car and Aida drove to the beach (she’s the only one who has the guts to drive manual. I can’t. It’s been 4 months since I drove a manual car. Tu pn sbb driving test.). On the way to the beach, we stopped by a petrol station and Mak and Ayah called. They reminded me about the bus tickets I needed to go back to PJ.

The beach was nice but can’t beat the beach at Mutiara Redang! Tu xyh nk citelh.hehe. It was really windy and the current was really strong. The sky was dark but it wasn’t raining. We walked by the “gigi air” and got splashed by the waves for few times. My jeans was soaked! It was a nice day out though. But we had to cut it short because Aida said she has a date that night. Hehe.

Saturday, 25^th July - To be on the safe side, the next day I bought bus tickets with Mira. She wanted to buy tickets for our “Cuti Pertengahan Semester” on the 14^th of August and “Cuti Khas: Raya” on the 18^th of September but she couldn’t buy the 18^th September’s ticket because it was already sold out.

My ticket info:

· KT->KL

Bus: Transnasional

Departure Terminal: Hentian Bas Baru MPKT, Kuala Terengganu.

Arrival Terminal: Terminal Putra, Kuala Lumpur.

Time: 1.00 pm.

Estimated Duration: 5 Hours and 42 Minutes.

Distance: 517 km.

Price: RM 38.50.

· KL->KT

Bus: Transnasional

Departure Terminal: Terminal Putra, Kuala Lumpur

Arrival Terminal: Hentian Bas Baru MPKT, Kuala Terengganu.

Time: 1.00 pm.

Estimated Duration: 5 Hours and 42 Minutes.

Distance: 517 km.

Price: RM 38.50.

Can’t wait to go back and see my family and friends!! I miss them so so much! Get ready people!!! SYAHILA’S COMING BACK!!!hahaha. Sorry. Too excited! :D

Lots of love & hugs,

Ila.

call it whatever you want.. I call it TRUTH.

2009-07-19T09:56:00.000-07:00

I had quite a tiring day today. Well... I can't say today anymore, since its already 1 o'clock in the morning and I'm not asleep yet. I got back from my night class at 12 and hung out with some friends while eating mamee sslllluuurrrpppp (we were so hungry and tired after class. So we bought 4 mamee ssslluuurrrppp and ate together in Aida's room). And I found out that my roommate, KakFarah, went back home again today. And I'm left alone AGAIN! I don't mind really, because I could sleepover Mira's room again.hehe. I really hope she doesn't mind me sleeping in her room again. but I know she understands why. I just can't sleep alone in my room. It's scary!! I live in an old building, Al-Biruni (or should I say, Al-BLUEny. My friend made that up.hehe. She's like the psycho girl in our class. Can't stop laughing when I hang out with her. :)) "sabarr baaa!!" LOL!), and the hallway is like a prison's hallway! Who wouldn't be scared of that?! So whenever KakFarah goes back home, you can find me in Mira's room. :)) I'm rarely in my room to be honest. Because there's nothing to do!! The WIFI signal is not that strong from my room, so I usually go down and use the internet in Mira's room.
Other than that, I'm really happy here. I'm actually learning how to be independent! At home, I usually just threw my dirty laundry in the basket and let Mak and KakFitri wash it. But now staying alone, I have to learn how to wash my own clothes, which is hard at first (it's not that i can't wash, i can wash my own clothes. It's just that, some of t he clothes is hard to twist. hehe. :D ) but I'm getting a hang of it. :D I have to admit, I was kind of a brat at home when I think about it now. Everything was done for me. Not that I'm complaining.hehe. :P And being away from my family and friends for the first time, really makes me realise that I have a great family and friends that I love, who will always be there no matter what. I can always turn to my family and friends for anything. The truth is, I didn't really feel the sadness going away to Kuala Terengganu when I was still in Petaling Jaya. But when it was time to say goodbye to my parents and my sister, who drove all the way from PJ to KT, tears flooded my eyes unexpectedly. When I thought they couldn't see me anymore, I wiped away my tears and went upstairs to my room. I didn't want them to see me cry. But the truth was, I cried myself to sleep most of the nights in my first week in Universiti Darul Iman which was called "Minggu Mesra Siswa, MMS". Adding to my misery that week, my samsung phone finally ended its life as a handphone.hehe. I couldn't charge my phone at all! So, it was so difficult for me and my family to contact that week. It was terrible! I was so homesick! I had to borrow my roommate's (at that time), Azura, handphone for awhile for me to contact my family and friends. I remembered, by just hearing my mom's voice at one point, I cried in public (alhamdulillah lh there wasn't many people waiting there.)! There was one day, that I cried so hard over a sms from Mak. I really cried myself out that night!!

"Ila dh lupe kt kitorg ke?"
- that really did it. :'(

I knew Mak was just teasing me. But that time, I was tired and felt so homesick, so I took it the wrong way. I really cried myself to sleep. But Azura didn't know until I told her the next evening. She was so tired that night, she dozed off instantly!

When MMS was over, I finally got the free time to actually talk on the phone with my family. First it was Mak (I started to cry already), then Mak passed to Syah (cried again), then to KakSu (and again. "Sp lg nk buat ila nangis?!!!" KakSu shouted over the phone. MU KEJAM!!!), then she passed the phone to KakAwin (surprise surprise! I cried again!!), and finally she passed it back to Mak (had stopped crying). (bet they had a pretty good laugh at home huh.. :)) )

Mak -> Syah -> KakSu -> KakAwin -> Mak
(nasib baik xde ayh, kakak, and abg. kalo x, the whooole family skali ckp..hehehehe)

After all the crying that week and the week after that, I stop crying whenever my family calls me. But that doesn't mean that I'm not homesick anymore. I still am and always will. <333333 Maybe I just don't show it as often. :D

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today's song stuck in my head is none other than Kris Allen - No Boundaries!! Eventhough my English lecturer played Adam Lambert's version (which pissed me off!!! >:(() but Kris Allen's version was the one that got stuck in my head.hehe. :)) He's such a talented artist!

I HEART KRIS ALLEN!! <3>It's not that i'm anti-Adam Lambert, it's just that i don't like the screaming type of voice. Sorry Adam Lambert!!:))
This song is really inspiring and meaningful!

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you’ve lost your way
What if my chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
To fight and never walk away

So hear I am - Still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing
When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down

I jumped every bridge and run every line
I risked being saved and I always knew why
I always knew why

So here I am - Still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing
When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take it by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there’s nothing between you and your dreams

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe - yeah!
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

lots of love and hugs,
ila.

a another new beginning..

2009-07-18T02:51:00.000-07:00

just started this new blog..
due to my annoying sister's (you know who you are!) request. after long comments about me being lazy and all, i finally have my own blog for me to write about anything and "practice my english" (quote from my beloved annoying sister. ;P), and also for my family and friends to know what i'm up to lately. ok. i have to admit. its a good idea and all but i don't know whether i could keep up with this blog or not. hehe. i know i know i'm being negative and all but, i'll try my best to update my blog as often as i can. that's a promise from me.

ilasya.